All Work is Homework in Boarding School

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Post by Trinity Peters-Stenhouse  » Mon Oct 01, 2018 8:17 pm

Trinity's throat tightened and he forced his eyes away from the professor. They stung, and the last thing he needed was Professor Delaney seeing him break down. He reserved that for special times when he was completely alone. He was planning on telling her that he was fine and leaving as fast as he could, but for the first time in what felt like his whole life, a woman was look8ng ast him for consern for his well being.

And was he okay? No. No, he wasn't. He was very far from okay, but it wasn't her problem. There was nothing Professor Delaney could do, accept ending his suffering and being sent to Azkaban, and he wouldn't ask that of anyone. He'd do it himself, when the time came.

But then he thought of Lyssa, and maybe the time was growing farther and farther from him than it had a few months ago. He thought about Cana and the possible friendship there. No, he wasn't okay, but maybe he was sonl6 getting better.

With his throat still tight, Trinity flipped his sketch book back open and ripped the sketch of Lyssa out of it. Shoving it out at Professor Delaney he forced the words out. "Keep it."
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Post by Prof. Jetta Delaney » Mon Oct 01, 2018 10:52 pm

Oh dear. This was getting awkward fast. She could tell something was horribly wrong with the poor boy, but he was completely unwilling to open up--at least yet. As he ripped out the drawing and handed to her, she couldn't help but get a sinking feeling. A sense of dread and inevitability radiated off this boy.

Well, she at least had an idea of what was going on in one sense.

"Has anyone here ever talked to you about depression, dear?" she asked bluntly. "In my experience, those of us in the magical community are absolutely terrible about the issue of mental health, but a lot of us are trying to get better. There is absolutely nothing wrong with what you're going through--as in, you're a normal, valuable person, you just have something going on. Now, are you depressed because of something in your life? Or is it seemingly for no reason? Because I'm familiar with both types, and I'm entirely willing to help you. I just need an answer from you."

She reached out and put a hand on the boy's shoulder. She could feel bone. A vengeful anger flowed through her. How could this boy so skinny, in a castle with three meals a day? Had something happened at home that caused him to not keep up a good diet? She stilled her face and tried hard to make herself look open and sympathetic. She certainly felt those feelings; but oftentimes, her face didn't match the way she felt. Jetta hoped she would be able to get through to him. This child clearly needed her help somehow. And Jetta intended to be there to give it.
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Post by Trinity Peters-Stenhouse  » Fri Oct 05, 2018 6:56 pm

Trinity jerked back from the woman, more because of her words than her touch. He was slowly getting used to touch again. "Wot?" No one had ever talked to him about anything. He'd read about depressions in weather, in finances, in the earth. But... depression in people? He didn't see how it was done. "Ah'm--Ah'm not..." But he couldn't finish. How could he say he wasn't something if he had never heard of it before?

Swallowing hard, Trinity slowly shook his head. "Wot is it? Ment'l 'ealth?" It wasn't often that he came across something that he didn't understand, but he had never found anything like this in the Hogwarts library. Professor Delaney said that she understood. Understood him? He didn't think so, but maybe. Lyssa was so amazing, and some of that had to have come from her mother. Maybe, just maybe, she could help.

He couldn't bring himself to put that on anyone, though. It would mean he would have to talk to her about his memories, and based what he overheard other Muggleborn and Half-blood students say. His memories of the Muggle world were not common ones. What if it meant he was a bad person? Professor Delaney wouldn't have to make him stay away from Lyssa then. He would be sure to do it himself. She couldn't have any more bad people in her life.

But... he had to know. "Can... Ah ask yew somthin'?"
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Post by Prof. Jetta Delaney » Fri Oct 05, 2018 7:20 pm

Oh dear, this wasn't good. Jetta had certainly offended the boy, and now he was going to run off and tell everyone she was crazy or something. But soon he seemed to still, and was questioning her with hesitant curiosity. Well that was certainly a step in the right direction.

"Well," Jetta began slowly. "We all have bodies to take care of. We have glasses or spells for our eyes, when we can't see properly. We have potions when we get infections in our lungs. But what about the brain? The part of us that holds everything about who we are--all our hopes, fears, dreams, memories? The part of us that we build the concept of schools around, the part of us that guides and drives everything about every single person? What do we do when that gets sick?"

She was slowly loosening up and going more fully into teacher mode. She raised up from the desk back to full height, and began gesturing with her hands.

"Depression is a sickness of the mind," she explained. "Anyone can get it. Gods know I've had it," she added, hoping that opening up a bit would help him. "It can run in families through the blood or it can develop naturally out of a terrible situation. It's a chemical imbalance of the brain. The brain produces...things," she faltered, trying to remember this boy probably didn't know what serotonin or dopamine were, "that help us to feel happy. To feel loved. To feel...most positive emotions and even some negative ones. When the brain doesn't produce those, we feel...muted. Unhappy. Unable to experience emotions and life to their fullest. Like..." television fuzz was probably a bad comparison to make if this child was a pureblood....

"Potatoes," she finally said almost randomly. "Sure you can survive on mashed potatoes with milk, but after awhile, it gets boring. It gets tiring. You feel like you have nothing to look forward to when it comes to them. Sure they taste good and normal every once in awhile, but every single day? It...feels like there's no more light at the end," she trailed off. This was getting far too personal. As he continued to talk she shook herself out of it.

"Of course. You can ask me anything," she nodded.
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Post by Trinity Peters-Stenhouse  » Fri Oct 05, 2018 8:14 pm

Trinity chewed the inside of his cheek for a moment. He was beginni g to realize that she was a good teacher. Even though he'd never even heard of this subject, she was helping him to understand. And he was beginning to, in a way. But he still didn't know how to fix it or if it could even be fixed.

But before he could even think of that, he had a question that needed answering. "Are Muggles'n wizards raised aloke?" He licked his lips and cleared his throat, forcing himself to continue. "No tellie'vision, no vehicles. Jus' da same? Muggles are loke dat, yeah?" Her answer would be the answer to questions he's had for years. Since before his first Muggle Studies class. "Tell me day're loke dat."

The boy had to blink away the rush of memories. There weren't very many children where he grew up. He couldn't remember the exact number, because they kept changing. The older ones would go away and then there would be young ones again. He had thought when his parents left with him, that they were taking him to where the other older kids were. But they just left him here.

It wasn't that diffrent, really. There was magic, which was awesome, but everything else seemed normal. Until the other kids started talking. Now, he was completely unsure of what normal was.
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Post by Prof. Jetta Delaney » Sat Oct 06, 2018 4:22 am

Jetta was temporarily at a loss for words. She wasn't entirely sure what the boy could be talking about. Finally, she broached the subject carefully.

"Well, there are some Muggle communities that don't believe in those things, that's certain. I don't know of any in Britain though," she added hesitantly. "There...really isn't a lot of crossover in the way purebloods are raised and the way Muggleborns are raised. Muggleborns are raised with pretty much all the amenities of modernity. Cars, television, internet, etcetera. I--do you know your own blood status? Not that it's important," she added quickly. "It's certainly not something anyone should be looked down upon over. My mother was a blood supremacist--is one--and I've cut all contact with her."

"May I ask why you want to know, my dear? Did you--have an...interesting home life growing up?" She didn't want to say the A word and spook the poor boy. And not having a car or television certainly weren't signs of an abusive or neglectful household. But certain things here weren't adding up for Jetta, and she was becoming increasingly more nervous about it.
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Post by Trinity Peters-Stenhouse  » Fri Oct 26, 2018 4:22 pm

Trinity tried to listen without interrupting as she explained the difference between magic and Muggle upbringing. It didn't feel right. Both of his parents were Muggle. He knew that. Of all the things, that was the one he knew. Things weren't adding up in his mind though.

He gripped his notebook tighter, needing something solid to hold onto. "Ah was Muggle," he told the professor. "We all were." Everyone he had ever known up until the point of joining Hogwarts was Muggle. But their way of living wasn't matching up with his way of life growing up. She had to of been wrong. He didn't know what she was wrong about, but it had to be something.

"Mah child'ood was norm'l," he said, more to himself than to Professor Delaney. Everyone had acted as though it was normal, at least. No one talked about all think things that apparently they were missing out on. He had never even heard the word "car" until his parents had driven him to King's Cross with enough supplies to last seven years. "Ev'one else is jus' weird."
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Post by Prof. Jetta Delaney » Tue Oct 30, 2018 7:48 pm

Jetta sighed and pinched the bridge of her nose. Not in frustration or anger, but just...well perhaps a bit of frustration. The poor boy couldn't see what was in front of him, and while she couldn't blame him for his reluctance, she also wasn't one to give that much in to denial. After all one couldn't accept it as too much of a survival strategy after the first time one's mother tried to kill them.

"What do you mean by 'we all were'? Was it more than just you and your parents where you were? Can you describe it for me?"

Despite wanting to help, she was also infinitely curious.

"You have to look at it from this perspective, my dear: what is the likelihood of everyone else in Hogwarts having a strange upbringing rather than just you yourself? There's nothing wrong with a non-traditional upbringing; I'm not saying that. And there's certainly nothing wrong with you," she reassured. "But there's obviously something different going on, and we need to discuss. You need to discuss it, otherwise you wouldn't be so hesitant to tell me."

It was a cheap shot, trying to reverse psychologize him into telling her, but she was willing to attempt anything if it would end up helping him. And if it ended up helping her daughter too in the long run, well who was she to complain?
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Post by Trinity Peters-Stenhouse  » Tue Oct 30, 2018 9:09 pm

Trinity knew Professor Delaney was right. He might have been callow in a lot of ways, but he wasn't an idiot, after all. Part of him had always known that his village was... different. Oh, both when he was little. There was nothing to question then. As he grew older, though, he realized how many of the Muggleborn and even Half-blood students shared similar experiences. And none of them were like his.

He had a feeling that Professor Delaney wasn't going to let the subject drop, though. If he left, she would either follow or track him down. And he would rather not have to say it all in front of Lyssa or Cana. Even if Professor Delaney knew, there was a chance that he could hold on to his... friends a little longer.

So, he sat himself back down and looked down at his hands. He didn't want to watch the professor as he spoke. "Dere we're... tw'nty families," he started, "Mos' didn' 'ave kids mah age." He'd grown up alone for the most part, since almost every activity was seperated into age groups, but he didn't tell the professor that. He did tell her about their houses, however. About how all unmarried women, thirteen and older, lived in one house and all unmarried men lived in another. There were a few houses for people to raise families, but other than that all of the married couples had lived in the Main House.

It was a quiet living, he told her. The girls would sew and cook and clean in the days, and them men would go hunting or farm the land. All the kids did schooling in the afternoon. There was one school house that they would all pile into. It was the only time Trinity got to spend with the other kids. That part he left out, too. He didn't want Professor Delaney thinking he didn't know how to be around people and forbidding him from seeing Lyssa.

He debated telling her about the weddings. They had always seemed off to him. Trinity had always liked the look his mum got on her face when she looked at his dad. It was like happy but more, deeper. He didn't see that look on any other woman's face. And sometimes, before the weddings, he would see them crying.

One time, he'd asked his mum about it. She'd said that they would learn to be happy, if they let themselves. That she had been sad at first, when his dad had picked her, but she had become very happy after not too long. She told him that, one day, he would have the chance to pick a wife, and she would probably be unhappy for a little while. It was his job, she had told him, to make her happy. And then she had made him promise never to repeat anything about the conversation.

It was that promise that kept him from telling Professor Delaney. After all these years, he'd never once broken a promise to his mum, and he didn't plan on doing it now.

"Ah didn' know dere was 'nother kinda life," he told her instead, "'cept when mah folks took mah away."
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Post by Prof. Jetta Delaney » Tue Oct 30, 2018 10:15 pm

Jetta hand't noticed her hand going to cover her mouth, until she felt her fingertips brush her own lips. Everything he told her was starting to slide into place.

He was raised in some sort of cult.

Jetta didn't want to call it a cult to him though. It seemed unbearably rude and possibly traumatizing. But the fact that they kept the genders separate from such an early age gave her an unbearably bad feeling, as did the gender normativity. What awful lies had this kid been told over the years?

"Do you remember where it was? This..." she hesitated to say the word 'compound' with all its connotations, "village of yours?"

"I--I want you to know that while what happened to you--the way you were raised--wasn't normal," she began, "it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. It's possible that there's some things you need to be educated on--some things you've missed out on with your upbringing--but it's--," she sighed. "You're not the only person out there who's been through this. There are groups, especially in the US, to help people who have been through what you have. Who can help you. I can--I can get some literature from them, and we can start from there?"

Jetta slid away a bit from Trinity but hopefully made it clear it was just to go to her desk to look for something. As she searched her desk, she continued.

"I want you to know that I want to help you as much as I can. You are Lyssa's...friend, and that matters a lot to me. She's been through a lot, and she needs good friends."
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